Right, after a kick-ass Friday and Saturday at both the live and online poker tables, I'm well back on course and firmly back on track. There's nothing like a few profitable sessions to really put the wind back into your sails - and I'm floating merrily in the breeze baby! I guess the light has turned a very bright green.
Due to the short-term variance I previously doubted whether to post weekly updates but as I have had such a good change of fortune recently (see next post), I will be posting my weekly update at some point today. (I know, it's the "fair-weather blogging" syndrome but we poker players are incurable egomaniacs.) When we get to March, I'll reconsider the viability of posting weekly updates but, as I keep discovering, a lot can happen in a week in this crazy game of poker.
Before I twaddle on about my trip to The Fox, I want to thank those who commented on me crying over short-term variance. I know I wasn't actually called a "pillock", per se, but that's what I was being and I really appreciated the comments and advice.
Sunday, 20 February 2011
Friday, 18 February 2011
Still On Amber
I have just made a small deposit on PKR and have some hard cash lined up for some live play this weekend. Through the week, I have just been playing Masters Stage 2 satellites on PKR so nothing major has been happening really so far this week. I'm still undecided about the openness of the profit and loss situation so I'm still at the amber light as it were.
However, I now have a full week off work (hurrah!) which will take me virtually to the end of the month. This is actually convenient as if I do decide to give profit/loss figures, I'm considering monthly updates rather than weekly ones. By doing this, I can give variance a chance to even itself out over a longer period before revealing the results to the world and it might prevent me from resorting to a knee-jerk (full cash-out) reaction every time the waters get a bit choppy, but we'll see.
However, I now have a full week off work (hurrah!) which will take me virtually to the end of the month. This is actually convenient as if I do decide to give profit/loss figures, I'm considering monthly updates rather than weekly ones. By doing this, I can give variance a chance to even itself out over a longer period before revealing the results to the world and it might prevent me from resorting to a knee-jerk (full cash-out) reaction every time the waters get a bit choppy, but we'll see.
Wednesday, 16 February 2011
The Amber Light Comes On
Ok, so I've not made any more deposits just yet but know what the problem is. I have been asking myself some questions and it's all about loosening up and just letting go. Life is just too short. The main issue, though, is whether revealing profits and losses on the blog is a good idea for my game. I started off intending to do this, to be "different", but I'm beginning to realise that the longer the journey goes on the harder it is to keep posting the exact details.
The interesting thing is that of all the poker blogs of the pros NO ONE goes into details of EXACTLY how much money they are winning or losing on such a long-term basis as yours truly...and I'm beginning to understand why. Nevertheless, I'll keep you posted on when, or if, the light turns green.
Here are some random songs that I like:
"Take Your Mama" by Scissor Sisters
"Meet Me OnThe Corner" by Lindisfarne
"Sweet About Me" by Gabriella Cilmi
"That's Not My Name" by The Ting Tings
"Not Fair" by Lily Allen
(The last one is a bit rude but I LOVE that video. Check out the continuity error with the presenter's green jacket changing to a red jacket at the beginning, the random shots of the chickens, the nerdy backing band, the bored drummer, the geeky out-of-sync dance during the bridge at 2:41, the kooky backing singers and Lily's "does-my-bum-look-big-in-this?" pair of trousers! Great Stuff!! )
The interesting thing is that of all the poker blogs of the pros NO ONE goes into details of EXACTLY how much money they are winning or losing on such a long-term basis as yours truly...and I'm beginning to understand why. Nevertheless, I'll keep you posted on when, or if, the light turns green.
Here are some random songs that I like:
"Take Your Mama" by Scissor Sisters
"Meet Me OnThe Corner" by Lindisfarne
"Sweet About Me" by Gabriella Cilmi
"That's Not My Name" by The Ting Tings
"Not Fair" by Lily Allen
(The last one is a bit rude but I LOVE that video. Check out the continuity error with the presenter's green jacket changing to a red jacket at the beginning, the random shots of the chickens, the nerdy backing band, the bored drummer, the geeky out-of-sync dance during the bridge at 2:41, the kooky backing singers and Lily's "does-my-bum-look-big-in-this?" pair of trousers! Great Stuff!! )
Tuesday, 15 February 2011
Stopped At The Red Light
Random but important musings:
(1) Thanks to the wise words and advice of some top players, I have come to realise that the only way to take my game forward is to change attitude. As a player who has played almost solidly for about five years, I know that it's all about the long-term BUT the main problem still persists. ie. Burning off around 3 or 4 buy-ins in one or two days is STILL a big enough dent to my bankroll for me to put up the shutters. In this case I throw out the safety net, cashout my entire bankroll and stop playing for a while. The "stop playing for a while" bit is ok but the cashing out of the bankroll is lame and really needs to stop.
(2) I have decided that daily updates on this blog may be harming my game at a sub-conscious level. Too much importance is put on individual hands which I feel compelled to twaddle about and poker hands should not be dwealt on in this fashion. At the same time, I don't want this to be a fairweather poker blog where I just post up details of winning sessions or just when things are going well. That's not what the blog is about.
(3) Once again, I'm seriously starting to question whether this whole blog thing is a good idea and this, in itself, must be boring to the reader. Losing sessions are common, I know, but I don't really want to start questioning whether it's right or wrong to continue with the blog every time it happens. And I'm sure people do not want to keep reading about it.
As such, as far as my poker journey and this blog goes, I consider myself stuck at a red light. While I sit here, I need to ponder over my options. Shortly, either as a post-script to this post or in my next post, I intend to devise some searching questions and supply the meaningful answers. Hopefully, this will sort out the issues once and for all and I can then give myself the green light to continue on my journey again, in a way which is right for me...
(1) Thanks to the wise words and advice of some top players, I have come to realise that the only way to take my game forward is to change attitude. As a player who has played almost solidly for about five years, I know that it's all about the long-term BUT the main problem still persists. ie. Burning off around 3 or 4 buy-ins in one or two days is STILL a big enough dent to my bankroll for me to put up the shutters. In this case I throw out the safety net, cashout my entire bankroll and stop playing for a while. The "stop playing for a while" bit is ok but the cashing out of the bankroll is lame and really needs to stop.
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(2) I have decided that daily updates on this blog may be harming my game at a sub-conscious level. Too much importance is put on individual hands which I feel compelled to twaddle about and poker hands should not be dwealt on in this fashion. At the same time, I don't want this to be a fairweather poker blog where I just post up details of winning sessions or just when things are going well. That's not what the blog is about.
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Monday, 14 February 2011
A Change Of Attitude? Change Of Site?
Part of the obligation I put on myself when doing a blog like this is the aim to post regular updates. Not only does this help me gather my thoughts but it's supposed to help me to keep my discipline and focus as well. By being open and honest, it's also supposed to help me play my best - but I'm starting to think that I may actually be putting added pressure on myself and , maybe, I need a change of attitude here.
Earlier, japete warned against being ruled by short-term results and this is very true; obsessing over short-term results is stupid. I responded by saying that I write about my feelings towards short-term results because I post short-term (daily) posts and it's hard NOT to write about those things. Yesterday, Rhymenoceros commented on the narrow-mindedness of my tilt-induced cashouts and my over-reaction to just a one or two buy-in downswing. All these points I respect and really need to be taken on board.
In my next post I'm going to write about the change in attitude that I think I need to bring to the game. This will also involve thinking about my attitude towards money.
Earlier, japete warned against being ruled by short-term results and this is very true; obsessing over short-term results is stupid. I responded by saying that I write about my feelings towards short-term results because I post short-term (daily) posts and it's hard NOT to write about those things. Yesterday, Rhymenoceros commented on the narrow-mindedness of my tilt-induced cashouts and my over-reaction to just a one or two buy-in downswing. All these points I respect and really need to be taken on board.
In my next post I'm going to write about the change in attitude that I think I need to bring to the game. This will also involve thinking about my attitude towards money.
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